What I Fear! Atleast a part of it
In the midst of a casual chat with Soumya, I stumbled upon this topic - "what do I fear in me?". I was the one who put the topic out, and it sure is cliché, but I wanted to avoid the "mmm...errr..well.."s to the more generic "speak about yourself" stuff. Besides, about fears was what she was talking about until then.
I didn't have a ready list, as always. But once I started talking about it, even I wondered from which corner of the hell did all those observations come from. These shreads of thoughts made of plastic were probably lying inside me for long, only to be picked up and piled during our finger-talk. May be there is a bigger litter inside.
First it is the fear of letting people into the inner circle, for its here that mistakes hurt more than anything else. 'The one' I am looking for would belong to the innermost circle, and I am afraid that my inferiority complexes would force me to make compromises. I am scared to look back at the distance between myself during my graduation times and myself right now, in matters concerning the interests I had outside textbooks. And I'm all the more concerned about how this distance is growing and this patch, that I am, is drying. I fear that my habit of taking things/people for granted (especially the ones in the inner circle) would cost me more damage than it has already cost me. At last I am worried about my habit of dotting every 'i' and wasting time over unnecessary details. I blame it on my sun-sign and I'm sure it follows me to the eternal vault.
Words that sound negative, even if apparently so, attract words of inspiration from others. They tend to cheer you up, even when you are talking eye-to-eye with your fears and feeling great about it. Soumya was no different. I was feeling glad about it all and I would rather hold on to these fears and deal with them myself. And my rationale is; all these are my own words of caution to myself.
Tougher times for the fastest Indian
Before 2006 Formula 1 season started, Williams Cosworth took a long time to decide between Narain Karthikeyan and Niko Roseberg, both rookies by F1 standards. The former came with experience from the last season, although he didn't do wonders last year. The latter was the son of the former F1 champion Keke Roseberg of the Ayrton Senna years, but has never been on a Formula 1 track before. They decided to give Niko a chance and put Narain as the second(!!) test driver.. :D
Williams seems to have made a good decision. Niko gave the champions a run for their money in the last weekend at Sepang, having finished a 3rd in qualifying and putting on a fierce run before a blown engine forced him to retire.
It's tough times ahead, Narain. I'm patriotic, oh yes, I am. But that doesn't save your ass. ;)
"You may have to let go of your regular daily routine today, for the more rigid you remain, the harder it is to stay on track. One interruption after another may finally force you to set your schedule aside. There's no need to work yourself into a state of frustration. Accept the instability of the day and respond with flexibility."Went thus 'predictions du jour' for me from Rick Levine and I am thinking "how true!". I stepped in with a resolution that I am going to make up for the hours I wasted yesterday. And that was the only target I could not meet today.
I started noticing these predictions when, on the day I got selected by Tata Consultancy Services, it told me that "my life is going to take a turn from the later half of the day". The TCS recruitment process started in the afternoon and my offer came when it was close to midnight!.
It startled me on most of my days from then on, especially when I would have something important to ponder, by predicting the situation and suggesting an approach to tackle it. It stregthened my faith in sun signs and I was surprised I could easily spot fellow librans. I loved the suggestions it gave on my dull days, even if it is to back off and relax.
I check my mailbox for the daily prediction in the evening, after work, so that I am not carried away by a suggestion I see in the morning. I regret this on some days because it would have given me a chance to better my day. But then I'm sure that has saved more embarrassments this way - evaluating the day against the prediction for the day and may be if it helps, plan for tomorrow!.
How was your day today?
